Hei. Mõtlesin, et jagan veidi.. Nägin peale eilset superhingamist unenägu. Olin ca 8 aastane laps ja tagasi lapsepõlvekodus vanemate juures. Nägin olukorda, et vanemad karjuvad ning tülitsevad. Isa oli väga purjus ja agressiivne kõigi vastu. Ma nutsin ja karjusin, et keegi mind sellest olukorrast päästaks, aga mitte keegi ei kuulnud. Justkui mu hääl ei jõudnud mitte kuskile ja keegi ei pannud tähelegi. Järsku tuli mu juurde mu sisemine laps, ta oli isegi inimese moodi, aga ainult mingi paarkümmend cm pikk ja tema seljataga olid sina ning te võtsite mind sealt kaasa. Kõndisime niimoodi ära, et hoidsite mõlemad mul käest kinni ja ma olin teie vahel. See tee sealt ära oli väga-väga pikk, nägin, et jalutasime Viimsist Nõmmele 😀 Ja te viisite mu käsikäes sinna ruumi, kus eile tegime superhingamist. Turvalisse ja kindlasse kohta, kus saan terveneda. Olen sisemise lapse rännakutel näinud midagi sarnast, et proovin sealt kodust lahkuda, aga siis ei saanud ma sealt lapsepõlvekodust kuidagi tulema, kogu aeg oli nagu mingi blokeering ees, et ma ei saa teisi sinna ju maha jätta, kuid selles unenäos oli sealt kodust väga kerge ja turvaline lahkuda. Ja kuidagi see mõistmine tuli ka väga tugevalt, et nüüd saan ainult mina enda sisemist last hoida, toetada ja tervendada. Kui siiani ma pigem olen olnud hingamistes tardunud olekus kui on vaja karjuda või end kuidagi väljendada, siis eile tundsin end taas nii turvaliselt ja kindlalt sinu loodud ruumis. Lasin tulla kõigel, mis tuli ja ei võidelnud millelegi vastu ning nii uskumatu kui see ka ei ole, ma ei püüdnudki midagi ega ennast kontrollida. Saan aru, et see turvatunne on väga oluline märksõna minu puhul, mis toetab ja aitab minevikutraumadest vabaneda. Ja oi kuidas mulle meeldivad need tugevamad helid gongidega, viimasel kahel korral olen saanud ikka väga palju hirmusid läbi hingata tänu sellele. Aitäh, et nii turvalise ja sooja ruumi lood, see on olnud mu jaoks väga oluline. See on ikka väga äge, mida teed! 💛

Ei teagi, kust alustada. Oleneb, kui täpset selgitust vajad, aga mul oli umbes poolteist aastat järjest vasak jalg peaaegu iga päev paistes. Käisin selle murega mitu korda arsti juures. Ultraheli näitas, et veri ei liigu jala alumisest osast hästi tagasi – klapid, mis peaksid takistama vere tagasivoolu, ei töötanud nii, nagu peaks. Pärast esimest gongiseanssi kadus see mure. Seansi ajal tundsin jalas surinaid, survet ja sähvatusi, ja sain aru, et midagi seal toimus. Tõesti, pärast seda pole jalg enam paistes olnud. See hüvastijätt isaga oli minu jaoks raske teema, sest kogesin seansi ajal tema kaotust uuesti, mis oli mulle väga valus (olin kuueaastane, kui ta kaotasin). Hakkasin seal nutma, aga sain teistpidi ka tuge. Veel üks mõte – äkki oli seotud ka lümfisüsteemiga, mis toetas kogu protsessi. Peale seanssi oli uriin kaks päeva väga hägune, ja kunagi lümfimassaaži järel juhtus sama. See oli mulle heaks märgiks, et keha väljutab seda, mis talle ei kuulu.

My therapy started at a place where I couldn't. In the grip of addictions and completely lost myself. No help had been received before. Fortunately, I still had a little hope. And I thought that I would try one more time, then without knowing that this would be the beginning of my new life.

In order for something to change, you had to go back to where it all started. Play through all those places that have caused a lot of pain. To see the wounds that have affected life so far. Getting well is selfish. I realized that my environment influences me a lot, and in order to see the bigger picture, I had to step away from the old.

It is very important who to trust. My work with myself was very deep and I had to suppress so many fears. Fear of opening up and sharing. Those places that you have tried to forget all your life. And that is the key to recovery. And thanks to Andres' therapy, it became possible. A safe space, trust and respect. All it takes is one person who believes in you and my example is proof that it really works

And Andres is a real example of a person who does his work with his heart. I was safe, I was held, and I made it! Thank you

I learned to know and notice emotions, give them names and express them to others. Realize that when I react to something, there is a feeling behind it, a reason, and I have the right to feel all feelings and they should not be suppressed. I loved hanging out with the group because it was quality time for myself - like water for a flower that should bloom someday. Each topic was different, important and engaging, and together created a whole, like a box full of tools to polish a diamond to shine and perfection.

I took time off and began to deal deeply with my mental health, I took responsibility for my own healing, including dealing deeply with emotions, feelings and thoughts. I participated in group therapy for addiction relationships and we also had individual meetings. Talking to Andres, I have always felt understood, listened to, safe, trusted, accepted. I use what I learned from him on a daily basis, I engage in self-analysis and self-observation, through this I also better understand the people who have participated in my life and are participating. I am now, primarily thanks to group therapy and individual meetings, much more aware of human psychology, psychic processes, functioning mechanisms, and conscious, conscious living, being, and management of thoughts, emotions, and behavior. I emphasize that from leadership, not suppression.

When I first came to the group, I was in another depression. I felt that my husband was not doing anything to save and change our relationship. I felt very lonely when I was in a relationship. We had nothing in common and I just wanted to escape the relationship. I had lost myself in the relationship and did not perceive my self-image, emotions and could not interpret them either. Now that I've gone through the program, I feel like I haven't changed. My personality is the same as before - I'm an introverted little flower who needs a peaceful life and being alone. But what has changed is that I am aware of my own needs and limits and I know how to work for them and set them.

I really like our group and Andres' therapy, because there is no accusation, no teaching, no judgment. I am given interpretations, choices and visions of different possibilities.
One thing I have definitely learned in therapy is problem solving. Don't escape into alcohol, travel, etc., but look into yourself. I am a better companion to myself, a better parent, a better companion to others. I am finding the peace within myself that has been neglected in my soul and heart. Thank you!

Andres' journey to the gong touched me a lot. The sounds he created were so powerful that some places echoed for days afterwards. The cosmic sounds he can create are simply amazing. I also have the issue that I haven't been very good at receiving anything good from people, momentarily I get the feeling that I owe a person when he wants or offers me something good. I really liked the intro that Andres created, it really made me think about that aspect and when certain gong sounds came and I opened up at the same time and just let those sounds come into me and accepted and asked for more. I am very grateful to Andres. His 'vibe' is also all-round balancing.

I am indescribably grateful to Andres. Today I physically feel how the ice melts around my heart... I'm starting to believe again that beautiful words are also for me and I have a chance, maybe not so-called. to survive but also to live. The power of the word is insane. I spin in my new feeling.